"My
Beloved World" by Sonia Sotomayor; Knopf (336
pages, $27.95)
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Some
of the most revealing moments in Sonia Sotomayor’s
stirring new memoir, "My Beloved World," come
early in the book’s 300-plus pages.
The
future Supreme Court justice is a mere 9 years old when
her father dies in her family’s apartment in a Bronx
housing project. He was a broken-hearted man with an
artist’s soul and a weakness for Seagram’s Seven
that eventually killed him.
Juan
Sotomayor’s family is devastated by his early death.
At his wake, after a night of endlessly repeated
rosaries, Sonia nods off before the coffin. When she
opens her eyes her relatives are arguing around her.
Apparently, while she was asleep, Sonia had spoken a
single Spanish word in the voice of a long departed
aunt. Conformate, she said. Accept it.
"I
can’t explain it," Sotomayor writes.
"Nothing like that had happened to me before, and
it hasn’t happened to me since."
At
age 9, and for much of her life, level-headed Sonia
tells herself that reason can triumph over chaos and
adversity. All around her adults act irrationally,
slaves to their superstitions and passions. When her
aunt later tries to climb into the grave with Sonia’s
dead father, Sonia doesn’t understand: The aunt never
came to visit when her father was alive.
"My
Beloved World" is a record of the most difficult
and improbable part of Sotomayor’s long journey from
the Bronx projects to a seat on the Supreme Court. It
begins with her birth to two young, unsettled parents
with roots in impoverished, rural Puerto Rico. And it
ends 38 years later with the realization of a dream she’s
held since childhood: her first appointment as a judge.
While
other recent memoirs by current and former justices have
touched on weighty political and philosophical themes,
Sotomayor avoids such terrain. A coming-of-age story,
"My Beloved World" does not touch on a single
day of her life as a Supreme Court justice. Instead, in
her own often straightforward, occasionally soaring
writing style, Sotomayor succeeds in "My Beloved
World" in crafting an often old-fashioned tale of
overcoming obstacles.
It’s
a book explicitly intended to address her newfound role
as a Latina role model. From her story of family and
community strength and dysfunction, a worthy Latino
addition to the pantheon of mythic American civic
stories emerges.
Lincoln
was a log-splitter, Washington chopped down the cherry
tree — and Sotomayor was a smart girl from the
projects who decided in grade school that she wanted to
be a judge. In "My Beloved World" we learn
that Sonia, having listened to her mother and father
fight almost every day of their marriage, likes the idea
of sorting out conflict. Her hero is the level-headed
judge on the old "Perry Mason" television
show.
Her
Puerto Rican-born paternal grandmother is a rare calm
and steady presence for Sonia during her earliest years.
Abuelita is a supplier of "unconditional love,
respect and confidence." She can also out-haggle
any street vendor, cook a mean sofrito, and channel the
dead at seances. But abuelita is only a shadow of
herself after the death of her son, Juan Luis. So is
Sonia’s mother.
Like
so many American immigrant and migrant narratives, it’s
a story that returns to "a little wooden shack of a
house" in the middle of crops and fields. Sonia’s
mother lived in such a shack, in Lajas, Puerto Rico,
eventually arriving in New York after enlisting in the
Women’s Army Corps during World War II. In New York
she met a young man named Juan Luis Sotomayor who
recited poetry to her, in Spanish.
Narratives
that link U.S. cities like New York to Latin America
towns like Lajas are, increasingly, a defining element
of the American experience — though they are still
underrepresented in American letters.
Sotomayor’s
story connects the Latino immigrant experience to
hallowed American institutions of learning and
jurisprudence: What she’ll do with her own chunk of
judicial power now that she has it, or what she thinks
the law can do to improve the lives of people like her,
are topics she’s apparently left for another book.
In
"My Beloved World" we watch Sotomayor reach
for her goals with a drive that’s already focused and
fierce at an uncommonly young age. "This girl’s
ambitions, odd as they may seem, are to become an
attorney and someday marry," a nun at Blessed
Sacrament school writes in the school yearbook when
Sonia graduates from the eighth grade.
In
other words, it was "odd" for a Latina in the
1960s to dream of becoming a lawyer.
As
a teenager at Cardinal Spellman High School, she reads
"Lord of the Flies" and is haunted by its
message: the desire to do good, and treat others with
kindness can be undermined by selfishness and fear.
Something similar, she can see, is happening in her
corner of New York City, with gangs, junkies and even
corrupt cops eating away at the city’s social fabric.
In
"Lord of the Flies" the boys use a conch shell
as a call to an assembly where rules are made, disputes
settled. "The conch ... stands for order, but it
holds no power in itself," Sotomayor writes.
"Its only power is what they agree to honor. It is
a beautiful thing, but fragile."
Sotomayor’s
account of her gradual, determined ascent through the
American educational system is filled with incidents
that will sound familiar to many Latino college
graduates. When she gets a perfect score on a high
school math test, she’s accused of cheating. At
Princeton, she endures the diatribes against affirmative
action provoked by the presence of a small number of
students "of color" on campus. Snarky comments
about women and Latinas follow her to Yale Law School
too.
Sotomayor
never lets these slights go unanswered, fighting back
like the tough law-geek with a chip on her shoulder that
she is. "You know what I love about you,
Sonia?" a fellow student at Yale says. "You
argue just like a guy." Later, as a young assistant
district attorney in New York, she develops a reputation
for ruthlessness. Nothing can stop her — not even Type
1 diabetes — though her ambition and work ethic
eventually undermine her marriage to her high school
sweetheart.
In
the end, Sotomayor achieves her goal, though it comes at
a cost of an enduring loneliness that perhaps
unwittingly colors the book’s final chapters. "My
Beloved World" is the record of that solitary
journey, and it ends with Sotomayor donning one set of
black robes, soon to be followed by others. It’s an
individual achievement that stands as a landmark in the
much larger, collective civic awakening of the Latino
U.S.
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